Time for me to be productive! ….. Nah

Have you ever had those days where you really want to do something (whether it be a craft, being active or I don’t know WRITING) and you have some really good ideas/things to do and/or a big desire to do ANYTHING and the second you sit down to do it, you suddenly feel like “never mind, I don’t want to do this right now” but the desire is still there? I’ve been feeling like this for almost two weeks now.

Part of it is because I have depression and I’ve been having problems with it lately (not suicide levels thankfully). But I haven’t been sleeping well, which is really bad since I get up at 6 am for work, my diet is completely out of whack *munches another pretzel* and I really don’t want to deal with anyone, not even my close friends at this point., which makes me even more depressed and not wanting to do ANYTHING.

But you know what? It’s moments like these that I have to remind myself that I’m lucky that I don’t have to deal with chronic depression, I have amazing friends and family who are always there for me no matter what, and I’m working hard on taking care of myself more. When I remind myself of the progress I’m making, or how I have a job that no one my age has, or how I have chances to do incredible things, I feel better. I have so many things I can be grateful for, and wonderful talents that let me help others in way not everyone can. That is what pushes me to work harder to be the person I KNOW I can be.

So if you’re feeling low or you are having a rough time, take a little bit of time to think about all the good things in your life. Even if you can only think of one thing, hold that close to your heart. Let it be the beacon that leads you back into the light of your potential, and use it to push yourself to be as amazing as you can be, no matter how long it takes. And as you find more things to be grateful for, add it to your little store, so that your beacon grows brighter and stronger, guiding you.

Don’t let pain, sadness or grief control you. It will only lead you down a dark hole that is really hard to climb back out of.